度过无所畏惧的胜利人生 (Come What May! Living A Victorious Life!)
叶丽云
马来西亚,槟城
(English Translation continued below after Chinese Original)
我自小生活在贫穷的家庭里,年纪轻轻即外出当家庭女佣。我的雇主是创价学会员,她早晚的明朗唱题声,引起我对此宗教的兴趣。雇主告诉我说,御本尊是有求必应,能够转换深重的宿业。当时,我体弱多病,母亲也深受病痛的困扰,加上家庭经济拮据,我们听此便全家入信。我还清楚记得,这改变我一生的曰子是1976年8月8日。
自从参加了学会活动,认真信心之后,家庭环境也随之逐渐改善。同时,一向自卑、懦弱、胆小怕事的我,也变得自信、明朗和坚强。我在女子部时期,都是以信心为第一,学会活动为主。
在众兄弟姐妹中,母亲最担心我的婚姻大事。我的学历不高,性格又内向,除了参加学会活动,就没有其他社交活动。我虽然不想母亲操心,但是从池田SGI会长给女子部的指导,我学习到“结婚并不代表幸福,而幸福也不是由对方所给。最重要的是在女子部时期努力积聚福运,建立人生的基础,不需要匆匆忙忙地结婚”。我向御本尊祈求自己一定能够为广宣流布作出贡献,而非只担心寻求伴侣的问题。
机缘巧合之下,我认识了外子。与他交往一段日子之后,却因为忙于学会活动,难以腾出时间陪他。我很坦白地告诉他,我不能因为拍拖而缺席学会活动。他向我求婚时,我也要求他先了解我信仰的宗教并邀请他出席学会活动。两年后,我们缔结良缘,成为广布伴侣。从那天起,外子认真唱题,并活跃于广布活动。
我在女子都17年时间里的学习所得,都一一在妇人部里实践。我携带孩子参加学会活动和进行家庭访问。不管是走多远的路、搭几趟的巴士,我都不怕麻烦和辛苦地参加学会活动。我以信心为根本,为儿子的成长和幸福奋斗,同时为达成“令法久住”的使命,努力不懈。我时时抱着报答御本尊的心,决意培育更多的人才。
外子意外逝世,家庭天伦变色
1999年,我面临人生非常严峻的考验。我依然清楚记得,那年的4月13日晚,我与外子参加了学会活动之后,抵达家已经是10点。半小时后,外子骑摩哆车上夜班去。可是,公司职员却于11时30分拨电询问,为何外子仍未上班。外子从不无故迟上班,所以令我非常担心。我立刻跪在御本尊前唱题祈求,并非常坚强地告诉御本尊'无论发生什么事情,我都会勇敢接受。。唱题之后的午夜12时,我与妹妹外出寻找外子,可是无功而返。我担心极了。
翌日早上7时许,我才接获消息说外子已经被送入医院急救。我赶到医院,摇着半昏迷的外子,问他到底发生了什么事。他已经无法言语,只勉强用了手比划,示意遭人打伤,接着就昏迷过去。
那时,我拼命唱题。我没有怀疑御本尊,只是感到自己宿业深重。
事发第二天,外子的台湾老板娘获知后立刻赶到医院探望。她给了我5000令吉,作为我们的生活费。临走前,她也告知一定会尽力帮助我们。雇主对我们特别关照,令我深深体会御本尊的守护。
两天后的4月15日,外子没有留下一句遗言就安详离世。这是我最悲痛的一刻。内心的痛苦,只能以眼泪表露。无论如何我明白,外子的死是宿命使然,而带着两岁大的儿子努力广布,是我的使命。
在我最难过之时,家人、学会干部和会友都纷纷鼓励和支援我,其中前任理事长柯腾芳更写信鼓励我说:“不要忘记信心,不要忘记自己的使命,以你的信心和实践,显现变毒为药的实证。”我告诉自己,绝对不能因为自己的遭遇,令会友对御本尊产生怀疑。我决意以此指导追求三世不灭的福运。
如今回头看,证明妙洼的力量是绝对的。我以外子的去世作为信心的另一个出发点, 10多年来,我的生活、经济等,都有了很大的转变。在御本尊的守护下,我顺利地领取到社险和保险的赔偿金,解决了我每月的开支问题。我以前是租屋,如今已有能力购买组屋;从前是走路、搭巴士去做广布,现在有了一辆国产灵鹿代步,而且还能载会友参加活动。2004年4月,我还自费远赴日本参加研修会。这一切的一切,是我之前做梦也没想到会实现的向往。以前,我一直祈求自己的工作顺利、经济安稳,有更多的时间为广布奉献力量,如今都一一实现了。我除了要感谢御本尊,也要感谢不断支持和鼓励我的家人与会友。
我的儿子勇健,虽然是生长在单亲家庭,但是却生活美满。他自小就参加学会的少年部活动,如今是健身操一员。他也积极参加青年部活动。勇健不仅成绩优良,而且很乖巧,老师对他疼爱有加。勇健能够健全成长,都有赖于学会与御本尊的守护。我期盼他未来成为社会与学会的人才。
脑积血及时获救,再受妙法守护
原以为生活已经一帆风顺,可是2007年岁末,我又遇上差点没命的意外!
当天傍晚,我见浴室外有水迹,于是伸手拿布擦干。谁不知布未到手,就失足跌得四脚朝天。爬起身之后,头非常晕,我躺在床上休息片刻,即开始岖吐。
呕吐之后,我并没有立刻休息。我将刚买的鱼处理好,以及做了晚间勤行才休息。后来,小妹和大姐联络我,我告诉她们我跌倒头晕作呕之事,过后就推辞说累休息去。平日健谈的我不愿多谈,令大姐对我的身体状况生疑。
我当晚一直无法安眠,甚至呕吐。隔天我如常起身勤行、唱题和作饭,之后打算去上班。此时大姐来电,劝我别上班,立刻到政府医院或专科医院检查。
我联络我家附近的干部送我到大山脚医院。医生替我照了X光之后,发现脑出血,情况危急,大山脚医院不接受我住院。
赶到医院的妹妹立刻将我送到槟岛专科医院接受治疗,可是医药费却高达25000令吉。未能筹够医疗费,家人急得如热锅上的蚂蚁。孩子已经失去父亲,家人不能再让孩子失去母亲。幸好联络上大嫂,及时解决了医疗费的问题。
医生马上替我动手术,并发现我脑内最大的血管破裂,血从三条裂瘾流出,形成长达8公分的旅血。幸好手术非常顺利,瘀血全清。
手术后我很快清醒,发现自己的头光秃秃,缝了30多针。医生表示,快速醒来,是好征兆。他也说,如果稍微耽误动手术,我可能已经返魂无术。
医生的这一席话,再次令我深深感受妙法的守护力量。若非平日很少拨电话给我的大姐当晚来电,发现我有异,我便不能及时赶到医院求医。同时,我一直以来都不买保险,可是我却在事发前的3个星期买了保单。
医生给我2个月的病假,我利用这段时间每天唱诵6至7个小时的题目。透过我认真的唱题和祈求,医疗费减至14600令吉,使我节省不少。另外,我也顺利地获得保险赔偿金。这印证御书的教导“有阴德必有阳报”,平时我真心守护会友、为广宣流布辛劳付出,最终化为功德回报到我的身上。
池田SGI会长指导说:“没有问题的出现就是幸福吗?有问题发生是不幸吗?问题的出现不等于不章,不幸是因为被问题所支配,能够将问题克服、战胜才是幸福。”
凭着坚强的信心,我将家庭宿命、外子意外离世以及自身的遭遇“变毒为药”,化为自己成长的原动力。历经这种种的试炼,我已经摒弃懦弱的自己,创造无所畏惧的胜利人生
[宇宙 2010年10月]
Come What May! Living A Victorious Life!
Ye Li Yun
Penang, Malaysia
I was born in a financially poor family, and has to work as a maid from a tender, young age. My employer is a member of the Soka Gakkai, and her daily sonorous chanting of daimoku aroused my interest in this religion. My employer told me that all prayers would be answered as long as I have the Gohonzon, and it could transform even the heaviest of karma. At that time, I was suffering from a poor constitution, and my mother was deeply affected by sickness as well. On top of that was the poor financial condition within the family. Hence after hearing such words, my family took faith in the Soka Gakkai. I could still vividly remember that this day of taking up faith which changed my life entirely was 8 August 1976.
Ever since I started my Soka Gakkai’s activities, and started to become serious in this faith, the conditions within my family took a positive turn. At the same time, the once timid self, lacking in self-confidence became a person of confidence, positivity and courage. During my days in the Young Women’s Division, it was always faith and Soka Gakkai’s activities as top priority.
Amidst my siblings, my mum was most concerned about my marriage. As my educational level was not high and my character was that of an introvert, except from participating in Soka Gakkai’s activities, there were no other social activities for me. Although I did not wished to worry my mother, I had learnt from SGI President Daisaku Ikeda’s guidances for the Young Women’s Division that “marriage does not entail happiness, and happiness is not what another person could give you. The most important thing in the days of a Young Women’s Division member would be to exert ourselves fully in accumulating good fortune, establishing the foundation in our lives, and not rushed into a marriage.” I prayed to the Gohonzon that I must definitely contribute towards kosen-rufu, and not just worried about finding a partner in life.
By chance, I met my husband. After knowing him for a period of time, it was difficult for me to spend time with him due to busy schedules of Soka Gakkai’s activities. I told him truthfully that I could not miss Soka Gakkai’s activities just for the sake of dating. When he proposed to me, I also requested him to understand my faith and invited him to attend Soka Gakkai’s activities. 2 years later, we were blessed to become partners in this path of kosen-rufu. From that day onwards, my husband became serious in chanting and was active in Soka Gakkai’s activities.
The results of all I had learnt in the 17 years of being a Young Women’s Division member manifested in actuality in the days as a Women’s Division member. I brought my children to Soka Gakkai’s activities and home-visits. No matter how far the destination or how many buses I had to change, I was never deterred and painstakingly participated in the Soka Gakkai’s activities. For the sake of the growth and the happiness of my son, I based myself entirely on faith as the prime point of my life, as well as to achieve the mission of “perpetuating the Mystic Law” earnestly. At the same time, I harbored the deep gratitude towards the Gohonzon by promising to foster even more capable successors.
Husband passed away due to an accident, family changed completely
In the year 1999, I encountered the harshest challenge in my life. I could still vividly remember that night on 13 April, my husband and I returned home from Soka Gakkai’s activities at 10pm. Half an hour later, my husband left on his motorbike for his night shift at work. But his colleagues called at 11.30pm that he was yet to been seen at work. My husband had never being late in his job, and this caused me tremendous worry. Immediately, I knelt in front of the Gohonzon to chant and pray with courage that no matter what happened, I would be able to accept the consequences. As I chanted till 12am midnight, my sister and I left to search for my husband but to no avail. I became extremely worried.
At 7am the next morning only did I received news that my husband was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. I rushed to the hospital, shook my husband who was in semi-coma and asked him what had happened. He could not speak properly, and hardly managed to gesture that he was beaten up. Next he went into coma.
At that time, I chanted profusely. I did not doubt the Gohonzon, only to feel that my karma was so heavy.
On the second day of this incident, the wife of the Taiwanese boss of my husband rushed to the hospital to visit him. She gave me RM 5000 to support my livelihood. Before she left, she assured us that she will definitely do her very best to help us. The special care and concern from the employer allowed me to feel the protection from the Gohonzon.
Two days later on 15 April, my husband passed away peacefully without a word. This was the most painful moment in my entire life. The deep pain in my heart could only be expressed by the tears from my eyes. No matter what, I understood fully that the death of my husband was a natural course of his karma and mission in life, and bringing up our 2 years old son while exerting myself fully in kosen-rufu was my mission in life.
At this moment of greatest distress, I received numerous encouragement and support from my family, the leaders and members within the Soka Gakkai. One of the encouragement came from the ex-General Director Koe Teng Fong, “Do not forget about faith, do not forget about one’s mission in life, based on your faith and actualization, manifest the actual proof of changing poison into medicine.” I told myself that I must never allow my members to doubt the Gohonzon because of my plight. Based on this encouragement, I vowed to seek the inexhaustible good fortune across all 3 existences of past, present and future.
Now that I reminisce, it really prove that the power of the Mystic Law is absolute. Using the passing of my husband as a starting point of a new departure, my life and financial situation have transformed tremendously in the past 10 years. Under the protection of the Gohonzon, I was able to obtain the claims from social and personal insurance, which resolved the issue of my daily expenses. Before, I was renting a place to stay and now I am able to buy my own flat. Before, I was walking by foot or taking a bus for kosen-rufu activities and now I am able to afford my own domestically made car, which I am able to give a ride to my members, bringing them to activities. In April 2004, I was able to save up to attend a training course in Japan. All these things were something that I would never be able dreamt of accomplishing. Before, I was always praying for a smooth and successful career, to be financially stable, to have more time for kosen-rufu activities, and I have realized them all. Not only must I thank the Gohonzon, I also wish to thank my family and Soka Gakkai members who have always been supporting and encouraging constantly.
My son, Jian Yong, had lived a warm and fulfilling life, even though he had been raised up in a single parent family. Since young, he had participated in the Future Division’s activities and now, he is a member of the Gymnastics group. He is also participating actively in the Youth Division’s activities. Jian Yong achieved not only good results in his studies, but was also a clever and obedient boy who received the praise and love from his teachers. The reasons why Jian Yong could grow up healthily was all due to the Soka Gakkai and the protection from the Gohonzon. With that, I look forward to him become a truly capable person for society as well as Soka Gakkai.
Saved in time from cerebral hemorrhage, receiving the protection from the Mystic Law once again
Thinking that life could be smooth sailing from then on, towards the end of the year 2007, I nearly lost my life in an accident again!
That evening, I saw some puddles of water outside the bathroom and therefore reached out to some cloth to wipe it dry. Instead of getting hold of the cloth, I fell with legs in the air. After recovering from the fall, my head was extremely dizzy. As a result I laid down on my bed to rest awhile, and began to vomit.
After vomiting, I did not rest immediately. I prepared the fish that I just bought, then conducted my evening gongyo before I rested. After that, my elder and younger sister contacted me, and I told them about falling down, vomiting and feeling dizzy. Next I quickly gave the excuse that I needed to rest. My usual chattiness was absent, which my elder sister became suspicious of my state of health.
That night, I was having difficulty sleeping, and even vomited. On the next day, I still woke up as usual, do my morning gongyo and daimoku, prepared the meals and decided to go to work later. At that moment of decision, my elder sister called and persuaded me not to attend to my work and to check up immediately at either a government or specialist hospital.
I contacted the Soka Gakkai leader who stayed near me to accompany me to Bukit Mertajam Hospital. The doctor took an X-ray and realized that I am suffering from cerebral hemorrhage but the hospital refused my admission.
My younger sister who rushed to this hospital sent me immediately to Penang Island Hospital, which was a specialist hospital to receive treatment, but the cost of the medical bill was as high as RM 25,000. My family members were frantic as we were unable to raise that amount of money. The child had lost his father, and my family members would never allow the child to lose his mother. Luckily, we managed to contact our sister-in-law which resolved our financial issue for the medical treatment immediately.
The doctor decided to operate on me immediately, and discovered that the largest blood vessel of my brain had ruptured and blood oozed out rapidly from 3 breaking points, which resulted in an 8 cm internal bleeding. Fortunately, the operation was very successful and the bleeding was stopped.
After the operation, I quickly awoke, only to find myself bald and with more than 30 stitches. The doctor mentioned that being able to wake up quickly was a positive sign. The doctor also said if the operation were to be delayed even the slightest, the result could have been disastrous and I might not have lived.
These words from the doctor proved once again to me the power of protection from the Mystic Law. If not for the call from my elder sister who seldom called me and discovered that something was amiss, I would never been able to rush to the hospital for treatment in time. At the same time, as a person who never buy any form of insurance, I happened to buy some insurance for myself just barely 3 weeks ago before this incident happened.
The doctor gave me 2 months of sick leave and I made use of this time of rest to chant 6 to 7 hours of daimoku daily. Due to the earnest prayers and daimoku, my medical bill was reduced to RM 14,600, which allowed me to save quite a substantial amount of money. On top of that, I had also successfully received the claim from my insurance. All these proved without a doubt that “inconspicuous actions will lead to conspicuous benefits”, where I received this benefit due to the daily efforts of protecting my members sincerely and working ceaselessly for the sake of kosen-rufu.
SGI President Ikeda said in his guidance, “Does a state of freedom from problems equate to happiness? Does a state filled with problem equate to misfortune? The appearance of problem does not mean that one is unfortunate. What is truly unfortunately is to be swayed by the problems. To be able to overcome the problems and become victorious, that’s happiness.”
Based on unwavering faith, I have transformed the “poisons” of family karma, the death of my husband and what I have gone through into “medicines”, to become the impetus of my own personal growth. After undergoing such trials, I abandon my weak, cowardly life and build a victorious, fearless life!
(Cosmic, Oct 2010)
Translation Disclaimer: The original testimonial is in the Chinese Language. It has been translated to the English Language for our readers’ convenience. Reasonable efforts have been made to provide an accurate translation, however the editorial team acknowledged that the translation may not be perfect to the author’s original and seeks our readers understanding. Please note that all guidance and quotes are loosely translated.
叶丽云
马来西亚,槟城
(English Translation continued below after Chinese Original)
我自小生活在贫穷的家庭里,年纪轻轻即外出当家庭女佣。我的雇主是创价学会员,她早晚的明朗唱题声,引起我对此宗教的兴趣。雇主告诉我说,御本尊是有求必应,能够转换深重的宿业。当时,我体弱多病,母亲也深受病痛的困扰,加上家庭经济拮据,我们听此便全家入信。我还清楚记得,这改变我一生的曰子是1976年8月8日。
自从参加了学会活动,认真信心之后,家庭环境也随之逐渐改善。同时,一向自卑、懦弱、胆小怕事的我,也变得自信、明朗和坚强。我在女子部时期,都是以信心为第一,学会活动为主。
在众兄弟姐妹中,母亲最担心我的婚姻大事。我的学历不高,性格又内向,除了参加学会活动,就没有其他社交活动。我虽然不想母亲操心,但是从池田SGI会长给女子部的指导,我学习到“结婚并不代表幸福,而幸福也不是由对方所给。最重要的是在女子部时期努力积聚福运,建立人生的基础,不需要匆匆忙忙地结婚”。我向御本尊祈求自己一定能够为广宣流布作出贡献,而非只担心寻求伴侣的问题。
机缘巧合之下,我认识了外子。与他交往一段日子之后,却因为忙于学会活动,难以腾出时间陪他。我很坦白地告诉他,我不能因为拍拖而缺席学会活动。他向我求婚时,我也要求他先了解我信仰的宗教并邀请他出席学会活动。两年后,我们缔结良缘,成为广布伴侣。从那天起,外子认真唱题,并活跃于广布活动。
我在女子都17年时间里的学习所得,都一一在妇人部里实践。我携带孩子参加学会活动和进行家庭访问。不管是走多远的路、搭几趟的巴士,我都不怕麻烦和辛苦地参加学会活动。我以信心为根本,为儿子的成长和幸福奋斗,同时为达成“令法久住”的使命,努力不懈。我时时抱着报答御本尊的心,决意培育更多的人才。
外子意外逝世,家庭天伦变色
1999年,我面临人生非常严峻的考验。我依然清楚记得,那年的4月13日晚,我与外子参加了学会活动之后,抵达家已经是10点。半小时后,外子骑摩哆车上夜班去。可是,公司职员却于11时30分拨电询问,为何外子仍未上班。外子从不无故迟上班,所以令我非常担心。我立刻跪在御本尊前唱题祈求,并非常坚强地告诉御本尊'无论发生什么事情,我都会勇敢接受。。唱题之后的午夜12时,我与妹妹外出寻找外子,可是无功而返。我担心极了。
翌日早上7时许,我才接获消息说外子已经被送入医院急救。我赶到医院,摇着半昏迷的外子,问他到底发生了什么事。他已经无法言语,只勉强用了手比划,示意遭人打伤,接着就昏迷过去。
那时,我拼命唱题。我没有怀疑御本尊,只是感到自己宿业深重。
事发第二天,外子的台湾老板娘获知后立刻赶到医院探望。她给了我5000令吉,作为我们的生活费。临走前,她也告知一定会尽力帮助我们。雇主对我们特别关照,令我深深体会御本尊的守护。
两天后的4月15日,外子没有留下一句遗言就安详离世。这是我最悲痛的一刻。内心的痛苦,只能以眼泪表露。无论如何我明白,外子的死是宿命使然,而带着两岁大的儿子努力广布,是我的使命。
在我最难过之时,家人、学会干部和会友都纷纷鼓励和支援我,其中前任理事长柯腾芳更写信鼓励我说:“不要忘记信心,不要忘记自己的使命,以你的信心和实践,显现变毒为药的实证。”我告诉自己,绝对不能因为自己的遭遇,令会友对御本尊产生怀疑。我决意以此指导追求三世不灭的福运。
如今回头看,证明妙洼的力量是绝对的。我以外子的去世作为信心的另一个出发点, 10多年来,我的生活、经济等,都有了很大的转变。在御本尊的守护下,我顺利地领取到社险和保险的赔偿金,解决了我每月的开支问题。我以前是租屋,如今已有能力购买组屋;从前是走路、搭巴士去做广布,现在有了一辆国产灵鹿代步,而且还能载会友参加活动。2004年4月,我还自费远赴日本参加研修会。这一切的一切,是我之前做梦也没想到会实现的向往。以前,我一直祈求自己的工作顺利、经济安稳,有更多的时间为广布奉献力量,如今都一一实现了。我除了要感谢御本尊,也要感谢不断支持和鼓励我的家人与会友。
我的儿子勇健,虽然是生长在单亲家庭,但是却生活美满。他自小就参加学会的少年部活动,如今是健身操一员。他也积极参加青年部活动。勇健不仅成绩优良,而且很乖巧,老师对他疼爱有加。勇健能够健全成长,都有赖于学会与御本尊的守护。我期盼他未来成为社会与学会的人才。
脑积血及时获救,再受妙法守护
原以为生活已经一帆风顺,可是2007年岁末,我又遇上差点没命的意外!
当天傍晚,我见浴室外有水迹,于是伸手拿布擦干。谁不知布未到手,就失足跌得四脚朝天。爬起身之后,头非常晕,我躺在床上休息片刻,即开始岖吐。
呕吐之后,我并没有立刻休息。我将刚买的鱼处理好,以及做了晚间勤行才休息。后来,小妹和大姐联络我,我告诉她们我跌倒头晕作呕之事,过后就推辞说累休息去。平日健谈的我不愿多谈,令大姐对我的身体状况生疑。
我当晚一直无法安眠,甚至呕吐。隔天我如常起身勤行、唱题和作饭,之后打算去上班。此时大姐来电,劝我别上班,立刻到政府医院或专科医院检查。
我联络我家附近的干部送我到大山脚医院。医生替我照了X光之后,发现脑出血,情况危急,大山脚医院不接受我住院。
赶到医院的妹妹立刻将我送到槟岛专科医院接受治疗,可是医药费却高达25000令吉。未能筹够医疗费,家人急得如热锅上的蚂蚁。孩子已经失去父亲,家人不能再让孩子失去母亲。幸好联络上大嫂,及时解决了医疗费的问题。
医生马上替我动手术,并发现我脑内最大的血管破裂,血从三条裂瘾流出,形成长达8公分的旅血。幸好手术非常顺利,瘀血全清。
手术后我很快清醒,发现自己的头光秃秃,缝了30多针。医生表示,快速醒来,是好征兆。他也说,如果稍微耽误动手术,我可能已经返魂无术。
医生的这一席话,再次令我深深感受妙法的守护力量。若非平日很少拨电话给我的大姐当晚来电,发现我有异,我便不能及时赶到医院求医。同时,我一直以来都不买保险,可是我却在事发前的3个星期买了保单。
医生给我2个月的病假,我利用这段时间每天唱诵6至7个小时的题目。透过我认真的唱题和祈求,医疗费减至14600令吉,使我节省不少。另外,我也顺利地获得保险赔偿金。这印证御书的教导“有阴德必有阳报”,平时我真心守护会友、为广宣流布辛劳付出,最终化为功德回报到我的身上。
池田SGI会长指导说:“没有问题的出现就是幸福吗?有问题发生是不幸吗?问题的出现不等于不章,不幸是因为被问题所支配,能够将问题克服、战胜才是幸福。”
凭着坚强的信心,我将家庭宿命、外子意外离世以及自身的遭遇“变毒为药”,化为自己成长的原动力。历经这种种的试炼,我已经摒弃懦弱的自己,创造无所畏惧的胜利人生
[宇宙 2010年10月]
Come What May! Living A Victorious Life!
Ye Li Yun
Penang, Malaysia
I was born in a financially poor family, and has to work as a maid from a tender, young age. My employer is a member of the Soka Gakkai, and her daily sonorous chanting of daimoku aroused my interest in this religion. My employer told me that all prayers would be answered as long as I have the Gohonzon, and it could transform even the heaviest of karma. At that time, I was suffering from a poor constitution, and my mother was deeply affected by sickness as well. On top of that was the poor financial condition within the family. Hence after hearing such words, my family took faith in the Soka Gakkai. I could still vividly remember that this day of taking up faith which changed my life entirely was 8 August 1976.
Ever since I started my Soka Gakkai’s activities, and started to become serious in this faith, the conditions within my family took a positive turn. At the same time, the once timid self, lacking in self-confidence became a person of confidence, positivity and courage. During my days in the Young Women’s Division, it was always faith and Soka Gakkai’s activities as top priority.
Amidst my siblings, my mum was most concerned about my marriage. As my educational level was not high and my character was that of an introvert, except from participating in Soka Gakkai’s activities, there were no other social activities for me. Although I did not wished to worry my mother, I had learnt from SGI President Daisaku Ikeda’s guidances for the Young Women’s Division that “marriage does not entail happiness, and happiness is not what another person could give you. The most important thing in the days of a Young Women’s Division member would be to exert ourselves fully in accumulating good fortune, establishing the foundation in our lives, and not rushed into a marriage.” I prayed to the Gohonzon that I must definitely contribute towards kosen-rufu, and not just worried about finding a partner in life.
By chance, I met my husband. After knowing him for a period of time, it was difficult for me to spend time with him due to busy schedules of Soka Gakkai’s activities. I told him truthfully that I could not miss Soka Gakkai’s activities just for the sake of dating. When he proposed to me, I also requested him to understand my faith and invited him to attend Soka Gakkai’s activities. 2 years later, we were blessed to become partners in this path of kosen-rufu. From that day onwards, my husband became serious in chanting and was active in Soka Gakkai’s activities.
The results of all I had learnt in the 17 years of being a Young Women’s Division member manifested in actuality in the days as a Women’s Division member. I brought my children to Soka Gakkai’s activities and home-visits. No matter how far the destination or how many buses I had to change, I was never deterred and painstakingly participated in the Soka Gakkai’s activities. For the sake of the growth and the happiness of my son, I based myself entirely on faith as the prime point of my life, as well as to achieve the mission of “perpetuating the Mystic Law” earnestly. At the same time, I harbored the deep gratitude towards the Gohonzon by promising to foster even more capable successors.
Husband passed away due to an accident, family changed completely
In the year 1999, I encountered the harshest challenge in my life. I could still vividly remember that night on 13 April, my husband and I returned home from Soka Gakkai’s activities at 10pm. Half an hour later, my husband left on his motorbike for his night shift at work. But his colleagues called at 11.30pm that he was yet to been seen at work. My husband had never being late in his job, and this caused me tremendous worry. Immediately, I knelt in front of the Gohonzon to chant and pray with courage that no matter what happened, I would be able to accept the consequences. As I chanted till 12am midnight, my sister and I left to search for my husband but to no avail. I became extremely worried.
At 7am the next morning only did I received news that my husband was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. I rushed to the hospital, shook my husband who was in semi-coma and asked him what had happened. He could not speak properly, and hardly managed to gesture that he was beaten up. Next he went into coma.
At that time, I chanted profusely. I did not doubt the Gohonzon, only to feel that my karma was so heavy.
On the second day of this incident, the wife of the Taiwanese boss of my husband rushed to the hospital to visit him. She gave me RM 5000 to support my livelihood. Before she left, she assured us that she will definitely do her very best to help us. The special care and concern from the employer allowed me to feel the protection from the Gohonzon.
Two days later on 15 April, my husband passed away peacefully without a word. This was the most painful moment in my entire life. The deep pain in my heart could only be expressed by the tears from my eyes. No matter what, I understood fully that the death of my husband was a natural course of his karma and mission in life, and bringing up our 2 years old son while exerting myself fully in kosen-rufu was my mission in life.
At this moment of greatest distress, I received numerous encouragement and support from my family, the leaders and members within the Soka Gakkai. One of the encouragement came from the ex-General Director Koe Teng Fong, “Do not forget about faith, do not forget about one’s mission in life, based on your faith and actualization, manifest the actual proof of changing poison into medicine.” I told myself that I must never allow my members to doubt the Gohonzon because of my plight. Based on this encouragement, I vowed to seek the inexhaustible good fortune across all 3 existences of past, present and future.
Now that I reminisce, it really prove that the power of the Mystic Law is absolute. Using the passing of my husband as a starting point of a new departure, my life and financial situation have transformed tremendously in the past 10 years. Under the protection of the Gohonzon, I was able to obtain the claims from social and personal insurance, which resolved the issue of my daily expenses. Before, I was renting a place to stay and now I am able to buy my own flat. Before, I was walking by foot or taking a bus for kosen-rufu activities and now I am able to afford my own domestically made car, which I am able to give a ride to my members, bringing them to activities. In April 2004, I was able to save up to attend a training course in Japan. All these things were something that I would never be able dreamt of accomplishing. Before, I was always praying for a smooth and successful career, to be financially stable, to have more time for kosen-rufu activities, and I have realized them all. Not only must I thank the Gohonzon, I also wish to thank my family and Soka Gakkai members who have always been supporting and encouraging constantly.
My son, Jian Yong, had lived a warm and fulfilling life, even though he had been raised up in a single parent family. Since young, he had participated in the Future Division’s activities and now, he is a member of the Gymnastics group. He is also participating actively in the Youth Division’s activities. Jian Yong achieved not only good results in his studies, but was also a clever and obedient boy who received the praise and love from his teachers. The reasons why Jian Yong could grow up healthily was all due to the Soka Gakkai and the protection from the Gohonzon. With that, I look forward to him become a truly capable person for society as well as Soka Gakkai.
Saved in time from cerebral hemorrhage, receiving the protection from the Mystic Law once again
Thinking that life could be smooth sailing from then on, towards the end of the year 2007, I nearly lost my life in an accident again!
That evening, I saw some puddles of water outside the bathroom and therefore reached out to some cloth to wipe it dry. Instead of getting hold of the cloth, I fell with legs in the air. After recovering from the fall, my head was extremely dizzy. As a result I laid down on my bed to rest awhile, and began to vomit.
After vomiting, I did not rest immediately. I prepared the fish that I just bought, then conducted my evening gongyo before I rested. After that, my elder and younger sister contacted me, and I told them about falling down, vomiting and feeling dizzy. Next I quickly gave the excuse that I needed to rest. My usual chattiness was absent, which my elder sister became suspicious of my state of health.
That night, I was having difficulty sleeping, and even vomited. On the next day, I still woke up as usual, do my morning gongyo and daimoku, prepared the meals and decided to go to work later. At that moment of decision, my elder sister called and persuaded me not to attend to my work and to check up immediately at either a government or specialist hospital.
I contacted the Soka Gakkai leader who stayed near me to accompany me to Bukit Mertajam Hospital. The doctor took an X-ray and realized that I am suffering from cerebral hemorrhage but the hospital refused my admission.
My younger sister who rushed to this hospital sent me immediately to Penang Island Hospital, which was a specialist hospital to receive treatment, but the cost of the medical bill was as high as RM 25,000. My family members were frantic as we were unable to raise that amount of money. The child had lost his father, and my family members would never allow the child to lose his mother. Luckily, we managed to contact our sister-in-law which resolved our financial issue for the medical treatment immediately.
The doctor decided to operate on me immediately, and discovered that the largest blood vessel of my brain had ruptured and blood oozed out rapidly from 3 breaking points, which resulted in an 8 cm internal bleeding. Fortunately, the operation was very successful and the bleeding was stopped.
After the operation, I quickly awoke, only to find myself bald and with more than 30 stitches. The doctor mentioned that being able to wake up quickly was a positive sign. The doctor also said if the operation were to be delayed even the slightest, the result could have been disastrous and I might not have lived.
These words from the doctor proved once again to me the power of protection from the Mystic Law. If not for the call from my elder sister who seldom called me and discovered that something was amiss, I would never been able to rush to the hospital for treatment in time. At the same time, as a person who never buy any form of insurance, I happened to buy some insurance for myself just barely 3 weeks ago before this incident happened.
The doctor gave me 2 months of sick leave and I made use of this time of rest to chant 6 to 7 hours of daimoku daily. Due to the earnest prayers and daimoku, my medical bill was reduced to RM 14,600, which allowed me to save quite a substantial amount of money. On top of that, I had also successfully received the claim from my insurance. All these proved without a doubt that “inconspicuous actions will lead to conspicuous benefits”, where I received this benefit due to the daily efforts of protecting my members sincerely and working ceaselessly for the sake of kosen-rufu.
SGI President Ikeda said in his guidance, “Does a state of freedom from problems equate to happiness? Does a state filled with problem equate to misfortune? The appearance of problem does not mean that one is unfortunate. What is truly unfortunately is to be swayed by the problems. To be able to overcome the problems and become victorious, that’s happiness.”
Based on unwavering faith, I have transformed the “poisons” of family karma, the death of my husband and what I have gone through into “medicines”, to become the impetus of my own personal growth. After undergoing such trials, I abandon my weak, cowardly life and build a victorious, fearless life!
(Cosmic, Oct 2010)
Translation Disclaimer: The original testimonial is in the Chinese Language. It has been translated to the English Language for our readers’ convenience. Reasonable efforts have been made to provide an accurate translation, however the editorial team acknowledged that the translation may not be perfect to the author’s original and seeks our readers understanding. Please note that all guidance and quotes are loosely translated.