The Life I Wanted
Qiu Hong Cai
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
In the year 1986, my ex-colleague tried to introduce me to Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism. Due to the act of brutality and killing of the innocence by the Japanese Army during World War II, I rejected his goodwill with this sense of hatred.
A few years later, I met my wife-to-be, who was then my girlfriend. She was a member of the Soka Gakkai Malaysia (SGM) and tried to convert me to this faith, but was also rejected by me. However, she persisted in sharing the greatness of this practice to me. Due to the fact that I was wooing her at that time, I continued to listen to her sharing.
After my graduation, I went to work in Singapore. I missed my family and hometown very much. This lonesome feeling was aggravated by my unfriendly and arrogant colleagues. Life to me, was painful and lonely at that point in time. I asked myself repeatedly, “what sort of the life do I really want”
3 months later, I resigned from my job and returned to my hometown. Knowing my predicament and unhappiness at work, my girlfriend said to me, “Why don’t you chant? It is free to chant and you could stop if you do not see any results. The power of the Gohonzon is mystical, and the key is profound and serious prayers without doubt.” In my heart, I was asking myself, “Is this practice really so amazing?”
With her persistence, I finally started chanting in the year 1990, silently in a small room with windows tightly closed. 2 weeks later, I saw the difference in myself. I became more optimistic, with the ability to see matters from different angles. At that time, I took a bus to the Soka Gakkai Malaysia (SGM) Kuala Lumpur culture center at Imbi Road to chant for more than 4 hours daily. Slowly and steadily, I gained clarity of my path for the future.
Shortly later, I applied for the position of a technical staff in a multi-national electronic company and was admitted to the job. In this new company, I was able to establish my career smoothly. Every time I encountered a challenge, I would chant to the Gohonzon, read SGI President Ikeda’s guidance. I would also seek guidance from the SGM leaders.
I was filled with gratitude that I was able to make new friends from different backgrounds in life. The performance at the South East Asian Games put up by SGM in the year 1999 was very moving, and it exceeded my imagination. Every participant in the performance was voluntarily performing, which changed my perception of “there was no free lunch in this world”. With the continued efforts of my girlfriend, I deepened my understanding of Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism. From then on, I joined in more SGM activities, and also joined the video group within SGM.
In the year 1998, together with my wife, we joined the “mass card display” performance in the 16th Commonwealth Games. We were required to wake up 4 a.m. every morning to participate in the training, which was a real test of faith and endurance. In the midst of training, we made mistakes at times, but we always mutually encouraged and supported each other.
In the year 2007, I participated in the National Day performance, and in the year 2010, our entire family participated in a “Friendship with Our Neighbors” performance. Embracing the spirit of itai-doshin, we practiced towards the common goal of great, successful performance. This is for the sake of SGM and kosen-rufu, not just for personal sake. Because of SGM, I felt the immense gratitude of being a performer.
My Human Revolution
I was the youngest in the family, the most cherished child of my parents. I was irritable and selfish before, kept thinking that I was right all the time while those around me were always wrong. At work, I was unable to get along well with my colleagues, reprimanding them whenever they made mistakes or could not help. At home, I also chided at my family members, not allowing them a chance to explain matters. All of them felt the stress, cautiously avoiding making mistakes.
My wife had a chat with me, hoping that I could change my attitude by chanting daimoku.
One day, she told me that I had stopped scolding people, including my own family members. I became more jovial, and easier to communicate with others. My colleagues acknowledged that I could accept their opinions and gave them the necessary support. I will continue to improve my own attitude through my own human revolution.
My Son’s Sickness
One day in year 2005, my 8 years old son, Zheng Xian, complained of severe headache when he came home. The headache persisted along with bouts of fever even after medication and rest. We bought him to the pediatrician, but he started to vomit the next day. We were extremely worried.
The doctors performed a magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) on the brain and discovered that he has a tumor the size of a golf ball which pressed on his nerves, causing the severe pain. An urgent operation was needed.
We were shocked, and could not believe that a normal, healthy boy could become critically ill. Deep in our hearts, we are determined that he must recover no matter what.
My wife informed a SGM leader about the situation of my son. Immediately, she organized special chanting sessions to pray for the success of the operation. We were touched by her thoughtfulness.
It was not a simple operation. In this high-risk operation which could last between 6 to 8 hours, if the doctors damaged any of the brain’s arteries and veins, Zheng Xian would have to bear the consequences and abnormalities of the damage permanently. In spite of this, we agreed to proceed with the operation.
After 6.5 hours of chanting and anxious waiting, the operation was a success. But in a week later, the doctors told us another bad news that the tumor was cancerous and further treatments were required.
We tried other alternative methods to fight the cancer, but after 3 months, it was all futile and his conditions worsened. Due to the re-appearance of the brain tumor, he was unable to sleep, walk and vomit all the times.
Another pediatrician did a brain scan, only to discover a bigger tumor at the same position of the previous one, and this time, it was in the cerebellum and required an urgent 2nd operation.
A week before the 2nd operation, my wife and me put all other matters aside, and chanted single-mindedly for the success of the operations, so that Zheng Xian could grow and become a capable person for kosen-rufu. The SGM members organized marathon chanting sessions, and the youth leaders visited and encouraged him at the hospital, “You are a great and mighty general. Now you are starting your battle, and will definitely achieve victory in the battlefield.”
The doctor predicted that 8 hours would be required for the operation. However, it only took 4 hours for the tumor to be successfully removed. When we visited Zheng Xian, he was already awoken. He said, “Mum, the Gohonzon is really great. Our prayer that I would not be in coma is realized. See, I have already woken up.” We were all touched by his great fighting spirit and the strength of his life-force.
After the operation, Zheng Xian was healthy and lively, without any differences with any other child. Our friends and SGM members were surprised and remarked that he did not looked like a child who had undergone a brain operation.
Before leaving the hospital, the doctor said, “This operation is different from the first one. Your conditions have great improvement this time.” Deep within our hearts, we understood that it was the single-minded prayer that allowed us to overcome all adversities.
These 2 operations cost us 50,000 Malaysian ringgits. The insurance I bought covered half the cost, while my company covered for the other half. It was due to my superior’s self-initiated support, the management had finally agreed on covering the other half of the operations’ cost.
Following this, we want to give the best form of treatment for our child. A tumor specialist from a private hospital suggested that we seek further treatment at the children’s tumor department of University of Malaysia Medical Centre. He wrote a letter explaining the conditions of our son and also personally contacted the professor-in-charge. The professional accomplishment and extensive experience of the professor gave us tremendous hope. What was really hard to come by was that the entire course of treatment was free.
Zheng Xian went through 33 times of highly intensive radiotherapy, which resulted in side effects like dropping of hairs, IQ retardation and growth imbalance. In later stages, he had also gone through 6 times of chemotherapy, where he experienced effects of vomiting and numbness of the body.
We chanted and prayed that the doctor would apply effective treatment for our son, and that all the cancer cells in the body would be completely destroyed. We wanted this to be an experience of “changing poison into medicine”.
A Healthy, Normal Boy
In spite of missing classes for a year, and in addition of IQ retardation, our son had achieved 3rd in class and 110th in position of his entire cohort of 400 over Primary 4 students, as well as the award of model student from his teachers.
We sincerely prayed that our son, Zheng Xian and our daughter, En Cheng to become capable people for kosen-rufu, manifesting wisdom to overcome their difficulties. In actual fact, Zheng Xian had achieved it. During his Primary 6, he chanted 10 minutes of daimoku everyday. As a result, he scored ‘A’s in 5 subjects of his UPSR exam. Currently, he is a Secondary 5 student who participated actively in SGM activities and is also a member of the Future Division’s Rainbow Choir.
Reminiscence
In the past 20 over years of practicing Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism, I now had a successful career, a stable income, and a happy and blissful family where every member of the family is participating actively in SGM activities. Every time we met difficulties, we would chant to the Gohonzon together, take action to solve the difficulties together. I vow to dedicate my entire life to the noble action of propagating the Mystic Law for the sake of the happiness of the common people!
[Source: Cosmic, Apr 2014 edition]
Translation Disclaimer: The original testimonial is in the Chinese Language. It has been translated to the English Language for our readers’ convenience. Reasonable efforts have been made to provide an accurate translation, however the editorial team acknowledged that the translation may not be perfect to the author’s original and seeks our readers understanding. Please note that all guidance and quotes are loosely translated.
(编辑注释: 以上是中英翻译，原版如下.)
我要的人生
邱鸿财
吉隆坡, 马来西亚
1986年，我的前同事向我介绍了日莲佛法。基于对日本军人在第二次世界大战时残暴杀害无数无辜中国人的怨恨，我断然拒绝了他的好意。
几年后，我遇上了现为太太的女友。她是SGM会员，她尝试折伏我，却为我所拒绝。然而，她锲而不舍地向我讲述日莲佛法的伟大，为了追求她，我只好洗耳恭听。
毕业后，我前往新加坡工作。我很想念家人和故乡，加上同事们都很傲慢和不友善，生活过得很辛苦而寂寞。我自问，自己要追求怎样的人生?
3个月后，我辞职回乡。眼看着因失业而沮丧的我，女友说:“为什么不唱题?它不需要任何代价，如果你没有看到任何现证，可以随时停止。御本尊的力量是不可思议的，关键是认真、深切和确信的祈愿。”我心中想“这个佛法有这么了不起吗?”
在她的坚持下，我在1990年在自己紧闭了门窗的小房间内悄悄地开始唱题。两个星期后，我看到自己的改变，变得比较积极，开始从不同角度看待问题，更乐现了。自此，我每天搭巴士到燕美路的SGM吉隆坡分会文化会馆唱念超过四小时的题目。我渐渐地清楚了自己的方向。
尔后，我应征一家跨国电子公司的技术员，获得录取。在新公司，我很顺利地建立起自己的事业。每当遇上挑战，我都会向御本尊唱题，阅读池田SGI会长的著作或接受SGM干部的指导。
我非常感恩，在广布活动中能认识许多不同背景的新朋友。SGM在1989年东南亚运动会的开幕典礼表演让我非常感动，超乎我的想象。所有表演者都是志愿义务演出，扭转我“天下没有白吃的午餐”的想法。在女友的努力下，我更理解日莲佛法。之后，我参加更多学会活动，也加入了录影组。
1998年，我们夫妇参加了第16届共和联邦运动会的“人文字”开幕表演。我们必需每周日清晨4点起床参加练习，真的是信心和毅力的大考验。练习期间，我们偶有犯错，但我们互相鼓励，给予对方支持。
此外，我参加了2007年国庆日演出，也与家人一起参加2010年睦邻亲善演出。胸怀异体同心的精神，我们为了一个共同目标，即“演出大成功”而进行练习。我们不是为自己，而是为SGM、为广宣流布。因为SGM，我有幸成为表演者，让我感铭肺腑。
我的人间革命
我是家中幼子，是父母最疼的宝。我曾经是暴躁和自私的人，总认为自己全对，旁人皆错。在职场，我不能与同事和谐相处，总在他们犯错或认为他们帮不上忙时斥骂他们。在家里，我也经常在没有给予解释机会下责骂家人。他们都很压力，战战兢兢地尽量避免犯错。
太太与我对话，希望我透过题目的力量改变态度。
有一天，她告诉我，我已经停止骂人，也包括家人。我变得更快乐，我们更容易互相沟通。我的同事也认同我已经可以接受他们的意见，给予他们协助。我会继续改善自己的态度，展开自己的人间革命。
儿子的病
2005年的某一天，当时八岁的儿子振贤，一回家就申述头很疼，即使服用止痛药和休息都无法让他平复，反而还出现发烧现象。我们带他到儿科诊疗，但他在隔日开始呕吐，让我们担心不已。
医生为他进行脑部扫描(MRI)，发现他的脑部出现了一颗如高尔夫球的肿瘤，而且正压在神经线上造成剧烈头痛，所以急需动手术。
我们很震惊，也无法相信平时健康的男孩怎会病危?心中想的是无论如何都要让他恢复健康。
太太首先联系了学会干部，后者随即马上特别安排了唱题会祈愿手术成功。我们都为她的体贴而感动。
手术绝不简单，在预计六至八小时的高风险于术中，若医生误伤大脑中的任何动脉或静脉，振贤都要承受永久性的伤害或因而异常。尽管如此，我们还是要让他接受手术。
经过六个半小时的唱题和焦虑等待，手术成功了。但一周后，医生告诉我们一个坏消息:肿瘤有癌细胞，必需接受进一步治疗。
我们尝试以其他替代疗法抗癌，但三个月后，不仅没有效果，病情更恶化了。随着肿瘤再现，他无法入睡、无法行走，也将所有食物呕吐出来。
另一名儿科医生再为他进行脑部扫描，发现同一个位置长出了一颗更大的肿瘤，而且更深入小脑，急需第二次手术。
手术前一周，我们夫妇俩搁下其他杂务，只是唱题，祈愿手术成功，振贤成长为广布的人才。SGM的会员为他举行了马拉松唱题会，少年部的负责人们也到医院探访和鼓励他:“你是伟大的将军，你即将出征，必须有信心在战场上赢取胜利!”
手术前，医生估计需要八小时完成手术。然而，却只花了四小时即成功除去肿瘤。当我们探访振贤时，他已经醒了。他说:“妈，御本尊很伟大，实现了我不要昏迷的祈愿。看，我已经醒过来了。”我们都深深被他的高昂斗志和强盛的生命力所感动。
手术后，振贤看来健康活泼，与其他正常的孩子无异。我的亲友和学会员来探访他时，都讶异他完全不像是刚接受脑部手术的病童。
出院时，医生说:“你和第一次手术时完全不同，你的病情有了很大的改善。”内心深处，我们都知道，跨越所有挑战的唯一方法就是全心全意地唱题。
两次手术共耗五万令吉，我购买的保险负责一半，另一半则由我的公司承担。在上司的主动要求下，管理层同意为我们支付手术费。
接着，我们要为孩子寻求最好的治疗。一家私人医院的肿瘤科医生建议我们到马来亚大学医学中心的儿童肿瘤科求诊。他写了一封信，详细讲解了我儿子的病情，还亲自联系了负责的教授。教授的专业素养和丰富的经验，给予我们极大的信心。难得的是，整个疗程是免费的。
振贤接受了33次的高剂量放射性治疗，其长期的副作用包括脱发，智商下降和成长失调。之后，他还进行了六次化疗，经历了呕吐和身体麻痹的状况。
我们唱题，祈愿医生有效地治疗我们的孩子，也祈愿他体内的癌细胞完全灭绝。我们将此视为变毒为药的体验。
一个健康正常的男孩
尽管缺课一年，加上放疗而影响智商，儿子在四年级时考取全班第三、全级四百多名学生中的第110名的成绩，还获得老师嘉奖为模范生。
我们真诚地祈愿振贤与女儿子恩成为广宣流布的人才，涌现智慧来跨越困难。实际上，振贤做到了。他六年级时，每天唱念10分钟题目，在UPSR考试中考取5科A的佳绩。目前，他是中五学生，积极参加在学会活动，也是彩虹少年合唱团的成员。
回顾
实践日莲佛法二十多年，我现在有成功的事业、稳定的经济和幸福和乐的家庭，大家都活跃于学会活动。每当遇到困难，我们都会一起向御本尊唱题，一起行动、一起设法解决。我誓愿，为了民众的幸福，我要献身于宣弘日莲佛法的伟大行动!
[宇宙月刊，2014年4月号]
Qiu Hong Cai
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
In the year 1986, my ex-colleague tried to introduce me to Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism. Due to the act of brutality and killing of the innocence by the Japanese Army during World War II, I rejected his goodwill with this sense of hatred.
A few years later, I met my wife-to-be, who was then my girlfriend. She was a member of the Soka Gakkai Malaysia (SGM) and tried to convert me to this faith, but was also rejected by me. However, she persisted in sharing the greatness of this practice to me. Due to the fact that I was wooing her at that time, I continued to listen to her sharing.
After my graduation, I went to work in Singapore. I missed my family and hometown very much. This lonesome feeling was aggravated by my unfriendly and arrogant colleagues. Life to me, was painful and lonely at that point in time. I asked myself repeatedly, “what sort of the life do I really want”
3 months later, I resigned from my job and returned to my hometown. Knowing my predicament and unhappiness at work, my girlfriend said to me, “Why don’t you chant? It is free to chant and you could stop if you do not see any results. The power of the Gohonzon is mystical, and the key is profound and serious prayers without doubt.” In my heart, I was asking myself, “Is this practice really so amazing?”
With her persistence, I finally started chanting in the year 1990, silently in a small room with windows tightly closed. 2 weeks later, I saw the difference in myself. I became more optimistic, with the ability to see matters from different angles. At that time, I took a bus to the Soka Gakkai Malaysia (SGM) Kuala Lumpur culture center at Imbi Road to chant for more than 4 hours daily. Slowly and steadily, I gained clarity of my path for the future.
Shortly later, I applied for the position of a technical staff in a multi-national electronic company and was admitted to the job. In this new company, I was able to establish my career smoothly. Every time I encountered a challenge, I would chant to the Gohonzon, read SGI President Ikeda’s guidance. I would also seek guidance from the SGM leaders.
I was filled with gratitude that I was able to make new friends from different backgrounds in life. The performance at the South East Asian Games put up by SGM in the year 1999 was very moving, and it exceeded my imagination. Every participant in the performance was voluntarily performing, which changed my perception of “there was no free lunch in this world”. With the continued efforts of my girlfriend, I deepened my understanding of Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism. From then on, I joined in more SGM activities, and also joined the video group within SGM.
In the year 1998, together with my wife, we joined the “mass card display” performance in the 16th Commonwealth Games. We were required to wake up 4 a.m. every morning to participate in the training, which was a real test of faith and endurance. In the midst of training, we made mistakes at times, but we always mutually encouraged and supported each other.
In the year 2007, I participated in the National Day performance, and in the year 2010, our entire family participated in a “Friendship with Our Neighbors” performance. Embracing the spirit of itai-doshin, we practiced towards the common goal of great, successful performance. This is for the sake of SGM and kosen-rufu, not just for personal sake. Because of SGM, I felt the immense gratitude of being a performer.
My Human Revolution
I was the youngest in the family, the most cherished child of my parents. I was irritable and selfish before, kept thinking that I was right all the time while those around me were always wrong. At work, I was unable to get along well with my colleagues, reprimanding them whenever they made mistakes or could not help. At home, I also chided at my family members, not allowing them a chance to explain matters. All of them felt the stress, cautiously avoiding making mistakes.
My wife had a chat with me, hoping that I could change my attitude by chanting daimoku.
One day, she told me that I had stopped scolding people, including my own family members. I became more jovial, and easier to communicate with others. My colleagues acknowledged that I could accept their opinions and gave them the necessary support. I will continue to improve my own attitude through my own human revolution.
My Son’s Sickness
One day in year 2005, my 8 years old son, Zheng Xian, complained of severe headache when he came home. The headache persisted along with bouts of fever even after medication and rest. We bought him to the pediatrician, but he started to vomit the next day. We were extremely worried.
The doctors performed a magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) on the brain and discovered that he has a tumor the size of a golf ball which pressed on his nerves, causing the severe pain. An urgent operation was needed.
We were shocked, and could not believe that a normal, healthy boy could become critically ill. Deep in our hearts, we are determined that he must recover no matter what.
My wife informed a SGM leader about the situation of my son. Immediately, she organized special chanting sessions to pray for the success of the operation. We were touched by her thoughtfulness.
It was not a simple operation. In this high-risk operation which could last between 6 to 8 hours, if the doctors damaged any of the brain’s arteries and veins, Zheng Xian would have to bear the consequences and abnormalities of the damage permanently. In spite of this, we agreed to proceed with the operation.
After 6.5 hours of chanting and anxious waiting, the operation was a success. But in a week later, the doctors told us another bad news that the tumor was cancerous and further treatments were required.
We tried other alternative methods to fight the cancer, but after 3 months, it was all futile and his conditions worsened. Due to the re-appearance of the brain tumor, he was unable to sleep, walk and vomit all the times.
Another pediatrician did a brain scan, only to discover a bigger tumor at the same position of the previous one, and this time, it was in the cerebellum and required an urgent 2nd operation.
A week before the 2nd operation, my wife and me put all other matters aside, and chanted single-mindedly for the success of the operations, so that Zheng Xian could grow and become a capable person for kosen-rufu. The SGM members organized marathon chanting sessions, and the youth leaders visited and encouraged him at the hospital, “You are a great and mighty general. Now you are starting your battle, and will definitely achieve victory in the battlefield.”
The doctor predicted that 8 hours would be required for the operation. However, it only took 4 hours for the tumor to be successfully removed. When we visited Zheng Xian, he was already awoken. He said, “Mum, the Gohonzon is really great. Our prayer that I would not be in coma is realized. See, I have already woken up.” We were all touched by his great fighting spirit and the strength of his life-force.
After the operation, Zheng Xian was healthy and lively, without any differences with any other child. Our friends and SGM members were surprised and remarked that he did not looked like a child who had undergone a brain operation.
Before leaving the hospital, the doctor said, “This operation is different from the first one. Your conditions have great improvement this time.” Deep within our hearts, we understood that it was the single-minded prayer that allowed us to overcome all adversities.
These 2 operations cost us 50,000 Malaysian ringgits. The insurance I bought covered half the cost, while my company covered for the other half. It was due to my superior’s self-initiated support, the management had finally agreed on covering the other half of the operations’ cost.
Following this, we want to give the best form of treatment for our child. A tumor specialist from a private hospital suggested that we seek further treatment at the children’s tumor department of University of Malaysia Medical Centre. He wrote a letter explaining the conditions of our son and also personally contacted the professor-in-charge. The professional accomplishment and extensive experience of the professor gave us tremendous hope. What was really hard to come by was that the entire course of treatment was free.
Zheng Xian went through 33 times of highly intensive radiotherapy, which resulted in side effects like dropping of hairs, IQ retardation and growth imbalance. In later stages, he had also gone through 6 times of chemotherapy, where he experienced effects of vomiting and numbness of the body.
We chanted and prayed that the doctor would apply effective treatment for our son, and that all the cancer cells in the body would be completely destroyed. We wanted this to be an experience of “changing poison into medicine”.
A Healthy, Normal Boy
In spite of missing classes for a year, and in addition of IQ retardation, our son had achieved 3rd in class and 110th in position of his entire cohort of 400 over Primary 4 students, as well as the award of model student from his teachers.
We sincerely prayed that our son, Zheng Xian and our daughter, En Cheng to become capable people for kosen-rufu, manifesting wisdom to overcome their difficulties. In actual fact, Zheng Xian had achieved it. During his Primary 6, he chanted 10 minutes of daimoku everyday. As a result, he scored ‘A’s in 5 subjects of his UPSR exam. Currently, he is a Secondary 5 student who participated actively in SGM activities and is also a member of the Future Division’s Rainbow Choir.
Reminiscence
In the past 20 over years of practicing Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism, I now had a successful career, a stable income, and a happy and blissful family where every member of the family is participating actively in SGM activities. Every time we met difficulties, we would chant to the Gohonzon together, take action to solve the difficulties together. I vow to dedicate my entire life to the noble action of propagating the Mystic Law for the sake of the happiness of the common people!
[Source: Cosmic, Apr 2014 edition]
Translation Disclaimer: The original testimonial is in the Chinese Language. It has been translated to the English Language for our readers’ convenience. Reasonable efforts have been made to provide an accurate translation, however the editorial team acknowledged that the translation may not be perfect to the author’s original and seeks our readers understanding. Please note that all guidance and quotes are loosely translated.
(编辑注释: 以上是中英翻译，原版如下.)
我要的人生
邱鸿财
吉隆坡, 马来西亚
1986年，我的前同事向我介绍了日莲佛法。基于对日本军人在第二次世界大战时残暴杀害无数无辜中国人的怨恨，我断然拒绝了他的好意。
几年后，我遇上了现为太太的女友。她是SGM会员，她尝试折伏我，却为我所拒绝。然而，她锲而不舍地向我讲述日莲佛法的伟大，为了追求她，我只好洗耳恭听。
毕业后，我前往新加坡工作。我很想念家人和故乡，加上同事们都很傲慢和不友善，生活过得很辛苦而寂寞。我自问，自己要追求怎样的人生?
3个月后，我辞职回乡。眼看着因失业而沮丧的我，女友说:“为什么不唱题?它不需要任何代价，如果你没有看到任何现证，可以随时停止。御本尊的力量是不可思议的，关键是认真、深切和确信的祈愿。”我心中想“这个佛法有这么了不起吗?”
在她的坚持下，我在1990年在自己紧闭了门窗的小房间内悄悄地开始唱题。两个星期后，我看到自己的改变，变得比较积极，开始从不同角度看待问题，更乐现了。自此，我每天搭巴士到燕美路的SGM吉隆坡分会文化会馆唱念超过四小时的题目。我渐渐地清楚了自己的方向。
尔后，我应征一家跨国电子公司的技术员，获得录取。在新公司，我很顺利地建立起自己的事业。每当遇上挑战，我都会向御本尊唱题，阅读池田SGI会长的著作或接受SGM干部的指导。
我非常感恩，在广布活动中能认识许多不同背景的新朋友。SGM在1989年东南亚运动会的开幕典礼表演让我非常感动，超乎我的想象。所有表演者都是志愿义务演出，扭转我“天下没有白吃的午餐”的想法。在女友的努力下，我更理解日莲佛法。之后，我参加更多学会活动，也加入了录影组。
1998年，我们夫妇参加了第16届共和联邦运动会的“人文字”开幕表演。我们必需每周日清晨4点起床参加练习，真的是信心和毅力的大考验。练习期间，我们偶有犯错，但我们互相鼓励，给予对方支持。
此外，我参加了2007年国庆日演出，也与家人一起参加2010年睦邻亲善演出。胸怀异体同心的精神，我们为了一个共同目标，即“演出大成功”而进行练习。我们不是为自己，而是为SGM、为广宣流布。因为SGM，我有幸成为表演者，让我感铭肺腑。
我的人间革命
我是家中幼子，是父母最疼的宝。我曾经是暴躁和自私的人，总认为自己全对，旁人皆错。在职场，我不能与同事和谐相处，总在他们犯错或认为他们帮不上忙时斥骂他们。在家里，我也经常在没有给予解释机会下责骂家人。他们都很压力，战战兢兢地尽量避免犯错。
太太与我对话，希望我透过题目的力量改变态度。
有一天，她告诉我，我已经停止骂人，也包括家人。我变得更快乐，我们更容易互相沟通。我的同事也认同我已经可以接受他们的意见，给予他们协助。我会继续改善自己的态度，展开自己的人间革命。
儿子的病
2005年的某一天，当时八岁的儿子振贤，一回家就申述头很疼，即使服用止痛药和休息都无法让他平复，反而还出现发烧现象。我们带他到儿科诊疗，但他在隔日开始呕吐，让我们担心不已。
医生为他进行脑部扫描(MRI)，发现他的脑部出现了一颗如高尔夫球的肿瘤，而且正压在神经线上造成剧烈头痛，所以急需动手术。
我们很震惊，也无法相信平时健康的男孩怎会病危?心中想的是无论如何都要让他恢复健康。
太太首先联系了学会干部，后者随即马上特别安排了唱题会祈愿手术成功。我们都为她的体贴而感动。
手术绝不简单，在预计六至八小时的高风险于术中，若医生误伤大脑中的任何动脉或静脉，振贤都要承受永久性的伤害或因而异常。尽管如此，我们还是要让他接受手术。
经过六个半小时的唱题和焦虑等待，手术成功了。但一周后，医生告诉我们一个坏消息:肿瘤有癌细胞，必需接受进一步治疗。
我们尝试以其他替代疗法抗癌，但三个月后，不仅没有效果，病情更恶化了。随着肿瘤再现，他无法入睡、无法行走，也将所有食物呕吐出来。
另一名儿科医生再为他进行脑部扫描，发现同一个位置长出了一颗更大的肿瘤，而且更深入小脑，急需第二次手术。
手术前一周，我们夫妇俩搁下其他杂务，只是唱题，祈愿手术成功，振贤成长为广布的人才。SGM的会员为他举行了马拉松唱题会，少年部的负责人们也到医院探访和鼓励他:“你是伟大的将军，你即将出征，必须有信心在战场上赢取胜利!”
手术前，医生估计需要八小时完成手术。然而，却只花了四小时即成功除去肿瘤。当我们探访振贤时，他已经醒了。他说:“妈，御本尊很伟大，实现了我不要昏迷的祈愿。看，我已经醒过来了。”我们都深深被他的高昂斗志和强盛的生命力所感动。
手术后，振贤看来健康活泼，与其他正常的孩子无异。我的亲友和学会员来探访他时，都讶异他完全不像是刚接受脑部手术的病童。
出院时，医生说:“你和第一次手术时完全不同，你的病情有了很大的改善。”内心深处，我们都知道，跨越所有挑战的唯一方法就是全心全意地唱题。
两次手术共耗五万令吉，我购买的保险负责一半，另一半则由我的公司承担。在上司的主动要求下，管理层同意为我们支付手术费。
接着，我们要为孩子寻求最好的治疗。一家私人医院的肿瘤科医生建议我们到马来亚大学医学中心的儿童肿瘤科求诊。他写了一封信，详细讲解了我儿子的病情，还亲自联系了负责的教授。教授的专业素养和丰富的经验，给予我们极大的信心。难得的是，整个疗程是免费的。
振贤接受了33次的高剂量放射性治疗，其长期的副作用包括脱发，智商下降和成长失调。之后，他还进行了六次化疗，经历了呕吐和身体麻痹的状况。
我们唱题，祈愿医生有效地治疗我们的孩子，也祈愿他体内的癌细胞完全灭绝。我们将此视为变毒为药的体验。
一个健康正常的男孩
尽管缺课一年，加上放疗而影响智商，儿子在四年级时考取全班第三、全级四百多名学生中的第110名的成绩，还获得老师嘉奖为模范生。
我们真诚地祈愿振贤与女儿子恩成为广宣流布的人才，涌现智慧来跨越困难。实际上，振贤做到了。他六年级时，每天唱念10分钟题目，在UPSR考试中考取5科A的佳绩。目前，他是中五学生，积极参加在学会活动，也是彩虹少年合唱团的成员。
回顾
实践日莲佛法二十多年，我现在有成功的事业、稳定的经济和幸福和乐的家庭，大家都活跃于学会活动。每当遇到困难，我们都会一起向御本尊唱题，一起行动、一起设法解决。我誓愿，为了民众的幸福，我要献身于宣弘日莲佛法的伟大行动!
[宇宙月刊，2014年4月号]